I signed up for a CNA course today, AND am more than likely hired at a job that starts the week after Thanksgiving. I called my friend to tell her, and she says "wow, you're really on top of it" but in that super sarcastic "please-just-stfu" tone. WHY can't people seem to be happy for other people these days?!

WHY DO YOU CONTINUE TO LEAVE THE BABY AT THE DINNER TABLE ALONE??? SHE COULD CHOKE OR KICK HER HIGH CHAIR DOWN! HONESTLY, HOW MANY TIMES TO I HAVE TO ASK YOU?

WHY are the teenage girls wearing the pants that look painted on right now? The thought of my 2 little girls squeezing into those things is terrifying. I wouldn't be caught dead in pants like that, it's impossible to hide the flaws that way!! And they look like sluts! I hope my kids will be content with pretty dresses and overalls until they graduate from college.

It seemed like a really great idea to make egg salad for lunch today. After I made it I remembered why it wasn't. I am pregnant and am gagging because I can't get the smell of boiled egg out of the air because it's too cold to open the windows. Ugh!

DH wants to do everything together. He wants us to go to bed at the same time, he wants to take our showers together and go places together and watch the same shows together. I find him to be needy. I love him and don't want to hurt his feelings but I need some space.

I masturbate while the kids are napping.

He was supposed to Quit drinking, H was just hospitalized for Pancreatitis, this morning i found vodka in his back pack "cleverly" hidden in a water bottle. i put a note on it and told him we needed to talk, we're supposed to get married in a week...i dont know if he found the note or not, but he asked me what was wrong. i told him i found the vodka, and that it was bad enough he could not quit for himself or me, but it was our daughter i am worried about, she's the one who needs a dad, not me...i don't know what to do. i can't even cry...im in shock

I get kinda pissed when people assume older children and adults are good people, so it must mean their mothers did a good job.

I'm kind and polite, I'm witty, and beautiful. (Though I'd never say it out loud). I'm very happily married and we have two sweet, beautiful children that she gets to see once a month.

But I was suicidal at 8 years old and I spent much of my childhood hiding from her in my room, cutting myself and sobbing, telling myself that in just a few more years I can escape from her forever and finally be happy.

I am not a product. I'm a survivor.

I am a lone parent and feel sorry for married women who have to service their husbands.

My stepdaughters mother hates me and as fed her bitter poison to my stepdaughter for so many years that it worked.

I have paid so much money and had her on expensive trips but any efforts to get to know her are shunned. But she takes anything she can get and asks for more. I have decided I am done and I have stopped trying. No more emails, gifts, vacations. NOTHING.

She thinks I am an evil stepmother anyway so why bother!

BTW she's 19 and no I met her dad years after the divorce.